mizmich's Diaryland Diary

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Goodbye 06

My heart's a little heavy, a little down.
Reading blog entries, spending time with my ex classmates..
Things don't feel the same anymore.

My closest friends are busy with their work and boyfriends and new groups of friends.
And people say I'm so caught up with my new found friends.. and haven't they?
Aren't they?

They say they wanna spend more time and have get togethers.. but when we do, it doesn't seem like any of your hearts are right there in the moment.
Your minds are probably wandering far away to your boyfriend's or girlfriend's , and just not right here.

Things get uncomfortable and I just feel sad about it.
So much for all that we've said and promised.

No wonder they said,"Once you do just ONE wrong to a person despite all the good you've done, the person will never forget that one bad thing and all the good memories will probably get overtaken." (somewhere along the line)

Anyway, I think a proper closure to 2006 is necessary to forget all the unhappiness and dwell only on the happy memories.

Sam,Nat and I

Sam: Things were pretty bad between you and I. In fact, it turned pretty much ugly and yeah, we all know what happened. But I've been meaning to say this all along that I hope we'd just let the past go and put a closure to it and maybe if we can, start afresh. I'll never forget our loving for Big Gulps and remember that dumb sentosa incident? ha well, thanks for the fun and memories :) take care and MASS COMM OKAYYY.

Nat: Well uhhh, I can't remember anything bad that happened between both of us, but I remembered our chicken talk which entertained people for quite a bit, and us walking home and hanging out occasionally and you asking me random questions.. hmmm. Hope you're doing good yeah :) I'm just a lane away.

It was also the year that Lost-Juveniles had just faded away..

Ate into lesson for this, but who cares?

I still have the LJ letters and reading them a week before CNY made me smile and laugh for no reason.
We wanted to set up a band which had a french horn as part of its instrument.
And we thought spray painting was so cool(still is), we tried to do it for the classroom, only to end up ruining the walls a little.
We were also in charge of lame stuff but yeah.. LJ's a great committee ha.

Our last min CNY shopping trip!
It was good to have everyone there :)

I'm sad things had to go down like that.. but you know, if things just don't work out, and if their too many knots to untie, then I think, separation would be the best solution and time fades things away.
Well, a reunion would be cool.
Afterall, we were formed outside our classroom during Mrs Raj's lesson ;)

Our FLAGDAY event where we went back to my place to karaoke instead?

And we also did leg waxing together ha!

My friendship with Lina can be quite difficult to be put into words but we're good friends and well well.
There were the good and of course the bad times.
Don't necessarily agree on a few things and don't need to be so paiseh about alot of things lina :)
We're in the same boat huh,you're so cute and funny but you just don't realise it.ha swimming one day!

Our obsession with our classmates :|

Sitting beside calvin lim is the best seat in class. I think I have the best seat in class haha.
Calvin on my left, Jeanie in front, lynn behind, misha on my right, lina in front of misha and sam in front of lina.
Calvin's one smart ass and the class joker. Thanks for everything(even though its pretty much minor) but its great knowing u :)
Take care of misha and I know you will!

Misha,misha.
We kept writing letters in class no matter how close we were sitting beside each other.
Even though we're not really that close, but when we do sit down and catch up, the closeness is there.
Yeah we both know what we said! :D

Milli the kickass girl in class! Guys better watch out yo!
I admired Milli's kickass attitude, but yet she can be so girly and vain huh! Always armed with a mirror ;)

Nurul. You're one person I'll never not forget, how to? You're the person that I've told alot about myself and I think its a neverending pit when you get to know a person. New adventure everyday huh.
Still remember our study dates and how we spent almost everyday together when we were sec 3.
Denmark trip changed us alot and we were going through some changes in life huh..
Well, I hope we all could meet up one day and just chat up or something.
And I'm up for prata anytime ;) ha

Oh yes, and how could I forget!
Our frequent petanque sessions!

Remember our running across field videos?
Or trying to jump off walls like superman or something?
Or doing our bohemian rhapsody lip-syncing vid?

My retarded act cute PSL juniors! hahah
Feels so lame.

Jeanie tham. My bestest friend yo!
Ever since we hung out from sec 2 huh.
Looking back on our pictures, oh my, it does seem that we've grown up and turned much more mellow.
We've become stronger and I guess, in general, the term's grown up.
And we've turned different.
Its sad we're now hanging out in a different crowd and somehow i just feel distant from you already.

I feel different emotions towards you and yeah, I'm pretty much confused.
But I guess maybe you're much happier where you are, but signals can be so confusing sometimes you know?
I've got so much to say to you but I know you'll probably tire from it, but you know I'll be here anyday.

And you're not the only one whose hurt and upset and feeling forgotten.
Because sometimes I feel that when I see or hear about all your lives.
So I told myself to move on.. only for the same thing to happen to others.

You know, I tried to make it up by trying to hang out with you and have heart to heart talks like we did in the past, but somehow things dont go our way and we'd always go our separate ways.
And you gotta admit, you're a boyfriend oriented person and he hangs out with mel and all, but I don't,you know?
It clashes.

You're definitely not a person I'd forget because we both changed each other in many ways and we've grown up together quite a bit heh.
Our studying sessions, shopping, and how people always stare at us when we're out together..
We even have intellectual debate!(note: over PAP or WORKERS PARTY)
And how we laugh at bengs right into their faces.

And we stalk people.

2006 wasn't a good year for you and we've been together so much only to end up here..
But you know I'm really a phonecall away.
Love you babe.

Maureen koh!
You know we're going through a rough time now.
Being separated and living in totally different environments just change people huh.
Somehow, we don't click and get irritated easily with each other. Get into silly misunderstandings only to end up feeling and saying the wrong stuff.

Today's mahjong session just made me feel sad because your life mainly revolves around irwin and work and not much of me.
I feel distant from you and I feel like I'm losing everyone again.
You could probably say its because I'm spending too much time with my SAJC friends, but I'd tell you right back that your doing the same with irwin.
but i love you for everything still.

Melvin. My closest guy friend but we totally stopped talking eversince some incident.
Well we've all seen how you've changed and I still got our "marriage certificate" ha.

Straightforward and labeled 'gossip king' huh.
Our mahjong sessions and how we owe each other the walks home.
Good luck for everything even though we don't talk now.

Your yummy bday cake!

Lynn goh!
My new found bestie ever since O levels ended.
Its weird how we got together but you're one hot sexy mama ;)
I had fun drinking, staying over, swimming, gymning, sakaeing,renting movies..
And talking to you anytime about everything and anything just warms me up cos I know you're there.
You and bises are going on strong and its so cool. I know you love him even though he found a new accent and he parties! hahaha weird but i love you lala.

MOLULA :D

Remember racial harmony day?
We had stayover at Sammi's!

Sammi, my fellow SAJCian. hee
Though we're not close but at least we do talk occasionally.
Good luck with whatever you do and i know you'll succeed in life!

Me and ernie.

Lynn and her sari.

Scottish man and cheena lady.

Yowww.

Emo is in.

Mdm tan! someone who told me I was going to fail my chem if i 'carried on like this'.
Guess who's got a B3 in chem mdm tan. DONT UNDERESTIMATE ME.

Funny moment!

MR LEE OUR PE TEACHER.
PE's fun with all the games and how we always make fun of his usage of words..
But we all he's a nice guy deep down huh.

Hello 4I, yes i do miss you.

MR LIM our form teacher.
You said you missed us and we do miss you too.
I guess we're the best class you'll ever teach(unless maybe you teach our kids) and you'll go a looong way.
Thanks for everything.
For risking your job many times because of our foolish decisions and actions.
Oh yes, and I cant remember about what you said on uhh errr sex. AHEM.
Thank you Mr Lim :)

Singing competition girls :D
We spent loads of time on this.. but I'm glad we had something we all love.

And because of the time we spend together..
We do retarded assholic things!
Like recording stupid vids of me mouthing words in a guy voice(by swee hao) and filmed by jeanie.
Mmmm.

And yes, swee hao you're so charming!
Jeanie and I would always be 'drooling' and 'gushing' over you.
And nobody, especially kelvin fong, can forget about me warming up your chair every morning. hahaha

LUNGBOY.
The dude who always scratches his head and huh huh huh.
Says weird things which always makes me go :| but his eyebrows will go up and down. haha
See you in NP! hee

3some haha.

Hardogay obsession.

And ahh, celebrating Jeanie's birthday.

Which was meant to be a surprise by the way.

Not to mention, O levels are freaking important and it was our main purpose in school..

Getting all emo and scared and frightened about O's

Another class chalet.
And you know what Jeanie, its the first class chalet that we didn't have any clashes between us.

Everyone was a camwhore, dont ask why!

PROM!
Rushing the make up at my place with maur heh.
Running around the dance floor and screaming at people who were grinding like monkeys.
And swee getting high and grabbing my hand, urging me to pass on the contagious dancing bug.

MOLULA was formed you know!
We love singing christmas songs..


Always camwhoring.(and lynn you owe me pictures, LOADS OF THEM)

My birthday present! :D




Airport.

And Lina, maur and I attended NP's Red camp but we were anti-social!

GREEN MONSTER AH


We made a new friend thooough!

And why I don't hang out with you guys much because you all act like you have your own lives to handle and you know, it seems like I'm mirroring your own actions. Think about it.
Really. Seriously think about it.
I'm neglected for some reason and then people claim I'm acting in the very same why.. Ask yourself why.

Wow, I sure did have alot of memories.
Sorry if I didnt post individual thanks to people because I'm running out of brainspace.
But to be honest, each and everyone of you whom I met, have made a footprint in my life.
I cant and dont think will ever forget every one of you because i've known all of you for quite some time.

2006 is now officially over, and being in Peicai Secondary is also something in the past.
I'm now in a new phase, and this time has been very much happy, but my emotions are a struggle.

Just to assure my old classmates, you all can just call or msg me anytime you want.
I don't like uneasiness between people.. so I'd rather it clears away you know?
And I gotta be honest with all of you, I feel that I'm losing all of you already.
Like I've already faded.

People tell me to just accept it.
Its life.
Yeah, I tell myself, life's unfair.
There isn't any much balance if you think about it.
But I'm human, and human gets sad and reflective..
And please, i hope people mean what they say because they dont do what they say somehow.

I hope 2007 goes just as well, or even much better for all of you.
2007 started with a blast knowing OG7.
It really is a blessing.
I guess God wants to finally give me the happiness that I should get huh.
Really,there isn't any bunch like any of you right now and losing it will cause me heart pain you know. Sim tia (LOL)

I hope you guys would stay where you are, be who you are and not let peer influence get to you :p
Don't leave me ok :(
I don't like people who walk in and out of my life just like that.

I don't like to be alone. Who does?
And there's a part of me wishing to stop feeling this way because thats whats of me.
My friends made me this way and maybe thats why I've moved on to my jc friends.

Maybe its because they made me feel like hey, life's actually really good if you look on the bright side.
To not focus on the negative and to let the positive overtake your mind and body.

And I really do love OG7.
They make me embrace my real self and to let go.
Fun has taken on a new meaning.
So much so that people feel that they arent fun enough to hang out with me..

Its an awesome start for this year and I hope for things to be as swell.
I'm afraid God would take away my one chance to be in NP's mass comm, so I must be a good kid. Be a good girl. Be a good friend. Be a good student(oops).

And to end this entry,
HAPPY PORK YEAR :D
Much love, and lets all start afresh.

11:57 p.m. - 2007-02-24

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