Awww PAE times. I miss you guys man. You know, this whole missing thing sort of got to me. In the beginning, I had so much desire to meet you guys and I thought things would work out. But just like a candle,the fire slowly dies out.
I'm bogged down by emotions and work. Time heals, doesn't it? And slowly the flame dies down too. And thats how I feel. There's definitely a strong desire to live the life of PAE, but my busy life has slowly killed it. Now I don't know how to feel anymore.
I feel a mixture of.. I don't know, weird emotions. I open and close like a shell, and today was one of the times I closed it. Jane should know what I'm talking about(because she says it on her blog too)
Everyone's moving on and it seems like everyone's got their own life. I feel like I don't know you anymore. Its as if we've turned into hi and bye friends and where's the connection?
I don't feel angry, I'm just flooded by all these thoughts in my head. I don't know what to say. i dont know. dont ask.
Maybe its that, or maybe its me. I don't feel fun anymore.
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Anyway, Nessa once again made me happy because her friend said I'm deep okay. Looks who's shallow right now. Ha!
Ah.. emotions emotions. Won't you leave me so?
I'm so free during the weekend, I wonder what I'll do. Oh yes, gotta get back to work because tomorrow's the dreaded submission and our presentation seems quite screwed.