mizmich's Diaryland Diary
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hello you (:
Awww the side of abel we never knew :) but its pretty surprising huh, how many sides of a person can one reveal?
Anyway, since the topic of Mother's day is so infectious..
Well, I'll admit. We didn't do anything special.
In fact, my parents and I stayed home and we did our THANG.
I did my work, they shifted plants and shit cos the balcony in their room had some leakage problem and all.
I realise as we grow older, we tend to gradually stop celebrating occasions which people tend to.. I don't know, hold such high regard for.
But you know, secretly I want to celebrate all of those occasions but not everything goes well planned.. but oh well.
Who needs these occasions as excuses to celebrate right!!
Everyday's a mother's day and father's day and so on and forth :D
Ahhh.. My love for my parents? Well,its darn hard to say how I feel and all. But I think I'll really be a patient of IMH if I ever lose them. Anyone of them.
Either that, or I'll die.
It scares me so much some times, I just sit down and cry. And when this feeling creeps up on me before I sleep, I cry myself to sleep.
I am just so scared of losing them. Its million times worse than losing myself.
I just see myself in a dark place. just somewhere dark when these thoughts haunt me.
And I always think, if I had to choose for them to go, or for me to go, I'd choose for them to go. Because I don't want them to carry on living with the pain of me going before them.
It pains every parent terribly to see their child go before them isn't it?
So I will rather I suffer, than for them to suffer.
My throat gets stuck right at this moment, I can't put into words how much I love them.
Even love doesn't cover all grounds of my emotions towards them.
Yes, I admit I take them for granted sometimes. My dad makes breakfast for us every morning. Sends us anywhere everywhere whenever possible. My mum would wake up in the wee hours of the morning just to prepare our meals for the day and then head off to work. She juggles work and housework, she gets so tired she falls ill, gets bloated tummy. You know, my mum even skips meals and she has loads of tummy problems :(
I feel so worried for my parents all the time. Will they fall ill? Will they think I don't care? Will they think I don't appreciate them?
But I really do.. and I just cant bring myself to show them.
All I can do is through little actions. Like helping my dad discreetly by doing something.or helping my mum massage her back.. I don't know.
And all I can say is, "Take care okay. you must take care of yourself."
Even my mum says I'm naggy.. but oh well.
When we get angry at each other, I give in, because I don't want to be angry at them, and to look back and hate myself for throwing tantrums for nothing.
So I grit my teeth and be nice. What can I do? I just want them to be happy right :)
I really really really swear to heaven and earth THAT I FUCKING LOVE MY PARENTS LIKE FUCK. hahaha alright.
Its like some declaration of love but ahh. I won't be able to say I love you. I'll keep this secret from them and so should you :D
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Anyway, a FUNNY excerpt from Jane's blog. that asssss grrr >=(
Back home, the 3 of us watched more korean variety shows, played some cards, and we taught ah chua how to play majong :D she had to go home for dinner, while LL stayed behind. Here comes an amazing discovery. LL HAS NEVER TASTED WATERMELON IN HER WHOLE LIFE UNTIL I FORCED HER TO EAT IT YESTERDAY.
OMG RIGHT.
I was in the kitchen when LL walked in.
Me: Ey, eat watermelon ah.
LL: Huh, I dont want.
Me: Why?
LL: I've never tasted it before.
Me: WHAT!?!?!? NEVER!? WATERMELON!?!?
LL: err, ya.
Me: EAT IT NOW. RIGHT NOW. EAT IT!!!
LL (looking really scared) : Whyyy?? I dont wanttt :(
Me: EAT.IT.NOW.
LL picked a really tiny piece of watermelon and held it between her fingers. As she raised her hand towards her mouth, her eyes were clamped shut, and her face scrunched up tight like as if she's ready to taste shit. She stuck out a small portion of her tongue and licked the watermelon (By God, it's just WATERMELON). She opened her eyes and gave a disgusted face. I told her through gritted teeth to eat it, and she shook her head over and over again, saying "dun wannn. i dun wannn." Finally, she popped it into her mouth and chewed. Almost immediately, she grabbed a grape and ate it, as if to neutralize the poison she just ate.
I didnt know whether to laugh or cry.
I slapped my hand on my forehead and said weakly "omg, I have NEVER seen anyone who have never eaten watermelon before (to think you're already 16 years old), and dont like it."
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DONT LAUGH AT ME SKLHGJSLGKSJGDSK
hahahahaa I'm really fussy with food alright. ugggggh
Jane, nei zhen hai yat goh HOU YAN!! doh jeh!! ngo wui hou hou repay nei. pffffft
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Today was the individual presentation and I screwed up whatever.
Anyway, after school, we went to prata yoooo.
Stupid cheese shit costs me 3 frigging dollaaars. ok nobody's complaining.
But on a random note, I LOVE CHOCOLATE DRINKS. even though it can be so bland.. but I LOVE CHOCOLATE DRINKS.
Guess who met up today for shopppiiinngggg!
Woooo
Kay, this was funny. whats with maur and that pose right?
Anyway, did you know MAUREEN LI LIN LYNN RHYMES?!
whoa whoa man. so cool.
We were saying how we got together only after O's and how weird that is that we got together.
Fate's full of surprises(eh whats wrong with me and all these cliche shit man)
We took the wrong bus to some lame place. only to take some bus back to the same bus stop we came from :|
Ha!
AND THE FUNNIEST SHIT HAPPENED HAHAHAH.
So we were waiting for the bus to come along, and 197 came, followed by 167. I was like, *points to 167* "eh 167!!!! gogogo!"
And lynn ran quickly towards the bus.
And guess where maureen ran to?
SHE RAN TOWARD 197.
And she was like tottering her way there or something.
hahahha wtf and that uncle stopped the bus just for her.
LMAO.
If I didn't call for her, she would've gotten up LMAO.
Lynn and I laughed like crap during the bus ride, trains your tummy muscles (:
Yay my lovelies :D
And when we were waiting for the bus to go home, I was talking about me having a rugby boyfriend and how cool it would be if he said he thinks of me EVERY touchdown.
So when he's with the ball, he BURNS the crowd and..
And I opened my arms WIIIDE, then I whacked some random old guy and he nearly fell onto the road. lmao wth
he gave the face that the girl gave to nessa when she twirled 360 degrees randomly in the middle of orchard road :|
HAHAH THAT :O comical effing face man. lmao.
And I was like an obstacle amongst the big crowd that was rushing towards my direction.
Then when we were on the bus right, and the bus JERKED like so suddenly, maur fell on me, and I accidentally fell and stepped on that random old guy.
hahaha he must have thought I like to injure him or something.
LMAO ITS DAMN FUNNY HAHHA.
And its the same person HAHAHA okay.
Ahhh I love molula outings man. All these weird and hilarious shit happens to us all the time.
We're gonna have a stayover this friday! and swimming and gymning on sat wooo.
Love you guys tons man. <3
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YES JEANIE I CAN DRAW.. a dead cricket only. you think I'm so good at drawing?! think again man!
A handsome opp. of zha bor!! oh wait, its da bor right. WHATEVER!
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Dear Jane, I decided to type out canto words for you, with absolutely no help from my parents :)
It could be our secret cool msg to each other on our blogs! woooo.
harlow(in your way of hello) SUI HAN! nei hou mah? Ngo dang hou loi lei type li goh gong dong passage! yin wai ngo dui gong dong wa yao seng qu!! hou hou addictive, nei fak gok dou mah?
ngo zi dou ngo goh gong dong mm hou, dan ngo zhong yu gong gong dong wa yin wei.. uhh ngo zhong yu!!! :D
ngo ye zhong yu nei la. haha! mo gong ngo dui nei mm hou okaaay. ngo si hou hou yan :D
Ngo zi dou nei hou hou hou hou hou ( x sup) mm hoi sum. ngo ye wui gok dak mm hoi sum, yin wai nei mm hoi sum :( suo yi nei you try nei goh best hoi ba mm hoi sum goh memories tew chet bin :D
Ngo mei tin dou gong, " Life sucks."
Ngo zi dou nei hai yew yao salvage li goh yau qeng, dan nei you zi dou, yau si ngo dei mm dak control sen meng. suo yi nei you take things in our stride..
Mmmmm.. zoi sen meng lei, yau hou doh yan ngo dei wui zi dou. yau hou geh, yau wai geh. yau yan wui dui ngo dei mm hou, hoi belongs to this category(omg im so lazy to think man!!) suo yi nei you ba hoi FORGET!! yin wai hoi sai nei goh si gan!!
yu guo nei yau hou doh si gan, nei hoi gew nei goh KOR KOR lei zi dou ngo :D heeeee *molests shaver*
wo hou hak xiu!! hahaha doi mm doi? :S
li goh passage leng ngo gok dak hou FU AH! ngo goh brain cells hou doh hou doh yi geng SEI FOH LE!!
okay, even though its pretty short, it took me like 15-20 mins to type it all out hahah.
shut up jane. you're gonna live with me for about 2 weeks. bwahahah
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And I had a total blast at Jane's place. oh man I wanna go over like every week ):
and we must go to the same uni okay!! grrrr.
School tomorrow and a new project! woot.
must finish 5 essays this week!
9:38 p.m. - 2007-05-14
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