mizmich's Diaryland Diary

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Sightless

I'm feeling lost here right now, i bet everyone's dying to know about my japan trip right.
It wouldnt sound very exciting when I tell you face to face because I'm not exactly in my hyper mood right now.
In fact, I havent been really happy these few weeks because I'm going through so much, i think life hates me.

I sound like an emo kid don't I?

Well, Japan was breath taking.
Seeing, touching snow for the first time really made me smile for once.
Its like a fairytale isn't it.
I'll talk about Japan when I get the videoclips and pictures from my cousin(the damned camera fell into the icy river)

I made snow angels, stuck out my tongue and tasted ice, went down the snowy slope at the skiing area with absolutely no control over the variety of sleighs, had snowball fights,hot spring baths(full nudity!),look my absolutely fattest in layers and layers of clothing,breathed out and clouds of breaths came out in a fury,had my ass washed by the toilet sprays, walking in areas below 0 degrees celsius, spend money like I wouldnt in sg, been much more homesick and upset than I would have ever been on a trip..
Its really fun, the whole trip that is.
All you gotta do is cancel all the sadness and small little bickers and me always getting commented on and getting scolded for nothing.

I wonder if anyone feels the same but, whenever I'm somewhere foreign, it just seems like I'm in some place in Singapore that I have never been in.

But when you think of it, my life's not going very well and maybe this trip happened just for it to take me away.

I don't know how people can forget their troubles and sadness when they detach themselves from the world they live in and hide away somewhere else.
But its always with me, always have been.
I haven't had a good cry about how bad things have been going but I'm still holding it there.

I wonder if the dead rose in my room's giving me all these shit but I'm throwing it away.

I need a good emo song(as if I don't have enough) but its addictive.
It makes me think, makes me reflect.

I'm pretty much lost in my thoughts now.
I spend time staring out at the window, taking in what seems like somewhere I would never imagine myself in, thinking how life's gonna go on.

I've been posted to temasek poly's Visual Communication in which I have no idea what the hell am I gonna do in there.
I just hope TP would call me back for law and management or business or something.

I feel so sad that I seem to have absolutely no control of things in my life.

I couldnt do anything when that camera slipped out of my pocket and slowly made its way into the river with many plonks.
I wasn't in the right state of mind when i chose that course to appeal into(I just had to get out of SRJC).
I just saw my left thumb and it seems like that half moon is coming out and I don't want it to.
I have canine-like teeth and braces are a must for me to wear now but I hope it'd be over fast.

I'm feeling like a balloon right now, just floating in air and I dont have anywhere to go right now.
All, but up into the sky..

2:34 p.m. - 2007-03-17

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