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Its nerve wrecking.
My heart's beating much more than the rate my mucus factory is working(read: nose)
My mind wants to rest because it claims that its got to work alot tomorrow.

I just pray that I'd get through this SUCCESSFULLY and ohmygod, my life would be much fuller.
hee
okay must talk to self more a while more and then to bed i must go.

I'm so freaked out if I have an awfully boring portfolio.
What if my personality is just as bland?
What if my mind starts to play tricks on me?

You know, I don't tend to really think think think when it comes to talking.
It comes out naturally.
I wonder if I have the gift of the gab.
I wish I did though.
Life would've been easier(but might have been much more complicated in a way)

I was reading my friend's blog, and ohmygosh, his humour is.. POW!(just like my nick).
His writing awes me so much, I can't help but read the paragraphs over and over again.
His words, it seems so easy to find them.Just a snap and there it goes, flat out on the table.

I feel a little sad that my english had weakened over the years.
Can't blame it on anyone but I just know which direction to point to. hee
Meeting people like carin(DAMMIT I WANT YOUR TONE OF VOICE. GIVE IT) certainly does affect people like me because I've suddenly lost the angmoh in me.

I've been so used to all the lahs,lors,lehs, its starting to annoy me when I cant seem to replace those words.
I'll probably end up with an unfinished sentence and ISNT THAT TRAGEDY ALREADY.
-frowns
Remember to smack me if i speak in the singlish tone or use any of those.. stuff.

I went to school early in the morning and late afternoon to settle some portfolio stuff and man, the teachers are sure nice to ex students.
Really, I doubt they'd talk to me if I were to be in my peicai uniform.
They would be like, "Who are you waiting for?" and I'd mutter something and they would twist and turn their heads, to help me locate the teacher.

Being an ex student also sort of brings relief because you know, if I were to say or do anything rude to the teachers, I couldn't be bothered because there wouldn't be any consequences.
Thinking back, I realised I was foolish to have abided by the book.
ha!

Oh yes, the new HOD of PE or something is a nice dood yo!
He helped me print out my CCA records(i said I misplaced it. Well, technically I did, but I know it has to be lurking somewhere..)
and is generally nice. okay period.

I RUSHED BACK LIKE MAD TO SAJC JUST TO SEE YOU GUYS FOR LIKE AN HOUR OKAY.
I was busy doing stretching exercises in the mrt station because the intense brisk walking was sort of taking a toll on my chicken wings(read: legs)
An hour with you guys made me really happy anyway :D
PERFECT THING TO END MY DAY WITH HUH!

And nessa, i wanna check your hair owwwwt! haha CANT BELIEVE ITS SHORT.
damn. I think it would take ages for me to actually have a want to cut my hair short.
But dont worry, HAIR GROWS :D
take it from the pro.
(im still on my silly hunt for cheapo hairsnippers)

I have slowly come to realise that I should actually come to terms with being separated from others that I used to be close with.
C'mon, we had to see each other everyday for the past few years.. and this sudden timeout?
It'll definitely put friendships to test.

And I've learnt to slowly take things as it is and to control my emotions even though I may get thoroughly irritated..
Know what irritates me?
Having to repeat myself so many times.
Talking and not having anyone listening.
And thats just starters.

Anyway, I decided to put time aside and compromised and i hope all things go well *twist fingers*

Its so real when they say "Feels so lonely even though I'm surrounded by many"
Stirs deep thoughts inside of me.
Tried to phrase it out in words, but nobody understands.. guess you'll only understand when you're in that situation.

I wonder if I get too emotionally attached to people sometimes?
You know, just that day I was spending quality time with Jane, crashing the LT just playing the piano(EH IM ON MY WAY TO MASTERING THE SCORE!)
Then when we had to separate, I was like, omg where's jane.
I feel weird without her.
Its funny how humans get attached to others. hmmm

You know, sometimes people should just admit it.

Surprise, surprise
Couldn't find it in your eyes

9:30 p.m. - 2007-02-26

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