mizmich's Diaryland Diary

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Smile again?

You know, sometimes I can get stuck in between.
Things can get so warped some time.
I am confused.
Totally confused.
I don't know how to feel.

I'm definitely enjoying my life right now..
But the choices i made?
Its all because of what I'm left with.
Its because of the way people act, and the impression they've left me with.

You know, people say things but they don't mean it.
Why is it always like this.. I don't know.
They say they're not like this, but OHHH, NOOO, THEY ARE LIKE THIS!

You can't deny it but I'm surrounded by boyfriend-oriented people.
Boyfriend first, friends second.
It sucks you know.
I don't know how people can balance but there are people that I meet that can totally balance it really well(eg. abel we're his fanclub)

I can never forget the instances where for example, I was suppose to go do something with my particular friend, but turns out, my friend dumped me for her boyfriend cos they wanna do it together (aiya interpret it whatever way you want)
You know, this hasn't happened a couple of times, in fact, it happened way too many times.

And hello, what does anyone expect me to do?
Cling on to someone who doesn't even want me to be around in the first place?

I've realised that I should stop living in people's shadow.
To stop letting others belittle me and feel so small beside them.
To stop letting them change me into a person I'm not.

But of course,circumstances arent very pretty in some situations and tada, guess who's the bad guy.
Accused and framed and you know, just fill in the blank won't you?
I'm tired of playing games already and there are of course, many knots left to be untied.

I'm a person who's pretty much sensitive to the surroundings(not physical okay i can't smell properly) and sometimes, I can just tell whats exactly going through people's mind.
Its amusing how people act and how their mind wander far far away..
Its in your eyes ;)

Its so easy to say things and give people the wrong assumptions.
There's so much more to be said but I think stopping here would be enough for now.
There's school and I can't wait because they give me happiness which takes me far away from the chains that drags us down.

You know, if only things could be erased like that, and if only I wouldn't be affected by how I was treated long ago, things would've been much better and nobody would feel that way anymore.

Let's talk

12:05 a.m. - 2007-02-21

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